This is going to be a freaking long post.

So it's been a few days since I have started this so I'm just gonna update about whats happenedd.

Good things:
-I've been drinking water like mad.
-Taking diet pills.
-I turned down a brownie at lunch the other day.
-I've been going or trying to go on walks everyday(just got back from one)
-One day I put a shit load of food in the oven and then I realized I didn't need that, I needed to be skinny, and I took them out. That was my favorite, I was so proud of myself.
-I've been eating louds of salad, and I just made my dad go get me low fat dressing.
-Drinking diet green tea(:
-I fasted all day yesterday (Saturday)
- I wrote down a shitload of inspirational quotes in my agenda book to remind me not to give up.

Bad things:
-When I have dinner with my family, I usually eat a lot.
-Friday I had a milkshake and french fries with my friends.
-I ate someone's sandwich and potatos at lucnh the other day.
-I usually have after school and midnight snacks.
-Sometimes i just feel like giving up and i binge.

Highlights:
-I got on the scale this morning and I was 168.8lbs. I havn't been under 170 in atleast a year.
-This was a huge step for me and it made me even more determined to keep fighting.
-I went to the homecoming dance last night and I looked super skinny in my dress. My boyfriend even said I looked thinner. Even though i felt like my arms looked huge.
-I've been able to fit into my sister clothes and shes a size smaller than me.
-The determination to fit into my sisters old prom dress it pushing me.
-Sometimes i can feel my stamach growling and I love it.

Not so bright times:
-I was so depressed the other night that I cut myself.
I know I shouldn't have done it and now I'm worrying that eople are going to see it.